VW jetta - save on gas for when it needs to be fixed!

i took the good ol' jetta in last night for a much needed oil change, and some of what i thought were minor inexpensive problems. boy was i wrong. i bought a volkswagon thinking, this car is going to last me forever, i finally figured out why it's going to last me forever... im replacing all the old parts for new ones. lol. it's only 2000. what i save on gas because of the excellent gas milage, i save in case i need to repair something.

anyways... this is what is wrong this time:

catalytic converter. takes the yucky pollute-my-environment emissions out of my exhaust. sorry earth, but im not going to replace that until next month. can't afford it this month. (this is one of the months where we have 3 extra bills, one we pay every 2nd month, and then 2 we pay every 3rd month.) parts and labour approx. $836.00.

next, is the right side fender lining. i had this part replaced just last summer, in may because it had a crack in it. now one of the clips has broke off, and the tire has been slowly, and un-noticeingly (i don't think thats a real word... but im going to use it for lack of a better one.) rubbing the fender, and well there's a huge gouge. great. parts and labour approx. $120.00. i'd rather have it fixed then have it one day wrap around the tire or completely fall off, and cause me to be in an accident. better safe then sorry. right? i have too much to lose.

then only $34.00 for the oil change, and a free interior, and exterior wash. and $14.00 for the laoner car. i tried to convince mike, my service agent, to do a fair trade up for a 2000 vw jetta, for the brand new doesn't even have 3000 km on it 2007 jetta parked in my garage!! no deal he says. darn him. maybe he'll throw in a free hat? maybe a jacket? a shirt? a keychain at the least. the work has got to be done.

so again... EARTH, im sorry!

yesterday & today.

yesterday, i actually got moving, and dressed earlier then i had intended. adam stayed home. not really sure why, but it was nice. im starting to think he's pregnant, he's been needing more and more sleep. lol. it was nice that he was home, i was able to grocery shop without brooke, so i was home in under and hour, for me... thats almost a record!!

had a birthday party last night. our neighbours little boy just turned 2 last week, and we're the only couple they know with a child. we've become close because she's a stay at home mom too, so we keep each other company during the week days. it's great because adam and her husband get along really good too. it's fantastic to have friends live so close by.

today doesn't hold much for me. clean my house, i have an appointment with the main carpenter for our builder. he has some touch ups, and things to do. he's coming early. have to run to the bank. and maybe for lunch with tarah. not sure yet. then later on, when adam gets home, were taking the jetta in. needs some work, most importantly an oil change. we get a 2007 jetta to drive. so tomorrow... oh yea... i'll be finding stuff to do, to get out of the house... lol. just to drive. :) that is... after i see alia on the price is right. :)

monday.

it's monday, pretty slow moving. got the tax stuff done though. doing some laundry... and im trying to decide if im even going to get dressed, maybe later? brooke has a birthday dinner tonight, just 2 doors down, we're obviously all invited. lol. her little friend lukas turned 2, and were the only couple with a child that they know, so instead of having a birthday party on the weekend, they are having us over for dinner. good idea. that means i don't have to cook tonight, so really... things are going to move pretty slow today. nice and relaxing!

our weekend out.

this weekend made everything better. mom and dad took brooke over night. it was fantastic. well yesterday didn't start off too well. adam had hockey at 4:30, and we had to make a few errand stops in the city before dropping her off. my parents were running a little late, so we dropped adam off at hockey, in winterburn, and then i drove all the way back to the northeast end. i was hoping to make it back in time to watch some hockey, but by the time i got there, adam was already kicked out of the game, a 3 penalties your out rule. so we watched the rest of his team finish up the game, and headed home. adam's brother and his girlfriend, my best friend met me at the arena. so we all headed back to the grove. we decided on dinner, and headed out to kelsey's, not my favourite, but hey, it was a meal out. after dinner, we headed into the city. not sure what we were going to do... mini golf, movie, bowiling... go carts... something. we headed to the movies. and between the 4 of us, we couldn't decide. so we headed back to our place. stopped off at rogers, and rented some movies. it was the perfect end, to a perfect night. the 4 of us ate popcorn, watched movies, and once in awhile... chatted, yes during the movie. it was strange going to sleep, without having to check on brooke, but it was nice.

AND...

I GOT TO SLEEP IN TIL 11 O'CLOCK!!! whooo hoo!!

gotta go now, have to pick up brooke, because as much fun as last night was... we miss her!
(adam and i should do this more often!!)

oh the fight.

i sat here, at home, all day, thinking about the gigantic fight we had last night. such a huge fight that im still upset about it even after i slept on it. im not one to carry fights into the next day, so when he gets home, im not going to bring it up. but im not going to lie and say everything is better, because it's not. things have got to change.

maybe i was a bit harsh thinking that i should run away with brooke for a couple days and maybe that would make him realize that he needs me, just as much as i need him. i need him to show me more respect, the same respect that i show him. and to think about us more, rather then just hmself all the time. can this change?

i don't want to change him as a person, just change the way he handles things. like his lack of communication. and him having to bug me until i cry. (which isn't really good for me right now, my hormones are a mess.)

i don't want to be in a relationship where the man controls everything, and especially in this case... does he think he can control everything because right now he makes all the money? I want to be in a relationship where there is compromise, and trust, lots and lots of trust, and respect. and we talk about everything, best friends... lovers. 50/50

am i asking for too much?

childcare.

im not sure what im supposed to do with myself. if i should find a job for a few months just until august, and save some more money. or should i just stay home. its a hard decision that i wish i was making. who, and what is really going to make that decision for me is if a dayhome provider, or daycare has room for a part-timer. its impossible to find childcare!! anywhere. ive been on a waiting list... not even for a home or a day centre, but just on an agency list for them to get to my name to even FIND me a dayhome. its crazy. if i had a little more patience, and a little more time, then i would consider taking in a child or two, and watch them, and become a dayhome provider, but i could only do part-timers. and i would only want to do that until august. once the new baby arrives, i just want brooke and the baby, thats it! thats all.

the 1st, but not last.

im feeling alone today, only because for the past 9 days adam has been home. and it's strange not to have him home, helping. just strange i guess.

BUT...

i did however get lots of house work done, with him not home i only have a little brooke to pick up after! so although i was lonely, and it was a bit more peaceful with the TV off all day, it was nice to actually clean my house, and have it stay clean!

oh the life of being a mommy, and wife.